i am dying

i really dont think i can do this anymore

i just dont wana be here, i dont see anything working out for me or me working out for anything else, im sorry, right now this is the worst iv ever been. i really am a peice of shit, dont tryn telll me im not, you dont know me like i know me.im not asking for help, i just need to let it out.

i try to be a better person but i just dont care enough

i really dont know what to do now

i keep puting it of thinking it will get better but it wont

my head is just fucked, i find sorrow in the happiest of things,

i want this to be the end, but i dont even think im strong enough to do it.im ment to be there for my family but insted i burden and disapoint them with most things i do.

i honesly hope i dont wake up.i cant even explain how i feel.

cominting suicide might not be such a fucking disapointment