i am dying

i really dont think i can do this anymore

i just dont wana be here, i dont see anything working out for me or me working out for anything else, im sorry, right now this is the worst iv ever been. i really am a peice of shit, dont tryn telll me im not, you dont know me like i know me.im not asking for help, i just need to let it out.

i try to be a better person but i just dont care enough

i really dont know what to do now

i keep puting it of thinking it will get better but it wont

my head is just fucked, i find sorrow in the happiest of things,

i want this to be the end, but i dont even think im strong enough to do it.im ment to be there for my family but insted i burden and disapoint them with most things i do.

i honesly hope i dont wake up.i cant even explain how i feel.

cominting suicide might not be such a fucking disapointment

YOU

after everything i put you through you still treat me like nothing ever changed

i cant understand how you can see any good in me.

i cant understand why the fuck you would care

one of the dumbest things i ever did was let you go

i cant stop thinking about u n i know its bad...

but your not just another girl and you never were

as much as i fucked up, i never lied about how i felt

i fucking miss what we had and i need that now more than ever.

if it wer any other girl they would of left me for dead but not you.

in a word your.. amazing

i want you back

fuck it, i quit

dubs, energy drinks and work is my life

im so fucking over it

i honestly dont wana be here and if it wasnt for my mum n sis id be gone i fucking swear.

im sick of my fucking fake smiles

RUNAWAYS!!

im about to leave to go to the gong n then husky n then back to canberra, thank fuck im outa here.

i get to see my family again, its been way to fucking long. also chloe is cuming, i miss her.

i hae a feeling im guna do some really stupid shit, im so fucking stoked, finally something to smile about. i get to see one of my fave bands to. killlluh

bbzzz

energy drinks have replaced food in my life

dan wrote a song about me

n they played it on friday night

rough

i miss the runaways

un everything

im not to goin to the show tomoro but most other cunts are, i wont get to see the runaways..again

whats left isnt jaming today

i didnt get told untill after i set everything up

im goin backrupt, i wont be alowed leave the country for 3 to 8 years

everyday is the same,

i feel like im dying

i dont care

i feel so fucking alone

i dont know how long i can keep this up

i cant spend another night alone

...

words

the constant flow of words through my head.

to me words have lost all meaning

not as i express them

but as i hear them

words that are use to describe something so great or so bad mean nothing

everything is just so fucking plain

i realllllyyy wana make sense of this, i want someone to understand..

but as usual i cant find the words.

nothing moves me except my own emotions and music

"events un-nerve me"

this isnt how i wanted to say it, again i fucked it up hahahaha

i actully think out of the very few people who read this shit, i ??THINK?? there is only one that fully understands me, adrian, i fucking miss you like even you couldnt understand

you are my family... i know its not much but please hold on to it. noone else will ever understand but its all wev got.

love

just look at how it makes people so fucking happy

each night looking at peoples comments n status updates n shit like that

but do they really understand the impact it has.

the word love is thrown around like its trash.

would these kids who so often use this word kill for there loved one? would they disregard there own life for there loved one?

i still cant work out if love has failed me or i have failed love.

how can i love another when i dont know me?

something else

"it makes me sick to know that my life is represented by the world we live in"

please dont mistake this for a cry for help

this world isnt for me, i never feel at home execpt when im alone

and thats when im at my worst, so maybe i shouldnt be?

i simply dont wana live in this world... will i ever feel at home? will i ever be happy?

not here... not today

suicide

cant stop thinking about it

uhoh

iv been drinkn

lets some up the last month'ish

i dont even know what to say

i have had some pretty rough nights, i really cant keep being alone everynight, its killing me

i pushed my self to the edge most nights and im really scared of how far its guna go.

i really am a fucking horrible person, i dont think there is one thing i dont hate about myself

its funny that people think that im happy all the time. if they knew what was in my head head every second of the day theyd wana put a gun in my mouth

thats the reason why i dont wana be around anymore regardless of how people think i am... i think what i think i feel how i feel and i do what i do and thats not how i wana be, somehow i know its not guna change

fuck i dont even know if im making sense.

people think that im ok now because i dont talk about it... but iv never been worse

i feel like a should die alone but im too sellfish.

im a burden to everything and everyone

i dont feel as if day to day i get anywere

i dont.

im not ok and i wont be ok

im not dealing with it

im drinking untill i pass out

as quick as i can

im really not ok

please understand i dont wana be here

"fuck i hope i dont wake up"

one thing that i still cant deal with, is actully watching my dad go, like sitting there holding his hand looking at him watching his chest move up and down n then nothing...then feeling his hand go cold... letting go was the hardest thing iv ever had to do... you couldnt possibly understand.... i cant even find the words

mum told me some stuff about dad from about 12 years ago... i wont explain on here... it really made me wish i died that morning.

the heroin diaries

the more dark side of my life.

i love you soooo fucking much girl, this is for you.

*

i saw a car drive past me that was the same as my dads today n i thought he was still here

other than that i dont feel like expressing myself on here

[];.

read it for your self

this is fucking murder

http://www.gamesindustry.biz/articles/metal-gear-solid-coming-to-xbox-360

cunt

im so fucking upset

i dont know what to do

im not joking

i just found out hideo kojima is planing to release a new metal gear solid on.... wait for it... the part that actullly makes me wana die....xbox.

how the fuck could he... i mean every title has been with sony.

i duno what to say, i just cant understand it.

this isnt a game, it is art, i cant handle this shit. this is something id die for, with no second thoughts. fuuccckkkk.

oh

i wana make my girlfriend my girlfriend

you blew me away

but theres something in the back of my head that tells me i dont have a chance

motherfuck that

^

lets fall in love

]][[

my heart being present in my throat for the last hour.

but its never been in the right place

i wont spend many more days waiting 

for something as unsure as my heart being in the right place.

my heart needs to drop love

my heart needs to drop from my throat

my heart needs a place to call home

andria

You still cross my mind from time lo lime. And I mostly smile.
Still so set on finding out where we went wrong and why
So I retrace our every step with an unsure pen, 
Trying to figure out what my head thinks, 
But my head just ain't what it used to be.
And then again, what's the point anyway?
I remember you ascending all the stairs up to the balcony
To see if you could see me - hidden quietly away
And I remember the skin of your fingers, 
The spot three quarters up I'd always touch when I was out of things to say.
You held my hand, but you were too afraid to speak and I could never understand.
I remember when you leaned in quick to kiss me, and I swear, 
That not a single force on earth could stop the trembling of my hand, 
And I remember how you smiled through the smoke
In a crowded little coffeehouse and laughed at all my jokes.
And I remember the way that you dressed and, 
How we wasted all the best of us in alcohol and sweat
And I remember when I knew that you'd be leaving, how I barely kept up breathing
And I bet if I had to do it all again, I'd feel the same pain, 
And I remember panicked circles in the terminal in tears.
How I wept to god in fits. I've hated airports ever since.
It must be true what people say, that only time can heal the pain.
And every single day I feel it fade away, but -
I still remember how the distance tricked us, 
And lead us helpless by the wrist into a pit to be devoured.
I still remember how we held so strong to this, 
Though we had never really settled on a way out.
I still remember the silence, and how we'd always find a way
To turn and run to our mistakes.
I still remember how it all came back together just to fall apart again.
My dear, I hear your voice in mine.
I've been alone here, I've been afraid, my dear.
I've been at home here. You've been away for years. I've been alone.
I breathed your name into the air; I etched your name into me.
I felt my anger swelling; I swam into it's sea.
I held your name inside my heart, but it got buried in my fear.
It tore the wiring of my brain; I did my best to keep it clear.
So, dear, no matter how we part, I hold you sweetly in my head.
And if I do not miss a part of you, a part of me is dead.
If I can't love you as a lover, I will love you as a friend.
And I will lay a bed before you; keep you safe until the end.

damaged goods

She forced a smile, said, 
'Boy, come kiss my mouth—I'll set you free.
You know that hope you're holding to? It looks an awful lot like fear.
Now, you're so quick to fall on failure, and so quick to raise your voice, like, 
'If I can't find a mistake to blame, we didn't have a choice.'

Oh, but you had option.
I was your chance to feel complete, 
But when I leaned in close to you, you
Kissed your fear instead of me.

You had my hand in your hand, 
You had my lip in your teeth, 
You had my heart on your sleeve, 
You had a chance to breathe.

But, boy, you wouldn't let your fear recede so I moved on.

And it's too late to change your mind now, 
You got scared, boy, and I got gone.
Now you failed, and there's no way to turn back time.
You had your chance, boy, I tried.'

'You tried?' I looked her in the eye and smiled, 
'My girl, you must understand that fear is not some product that I made.
It crept unwelcome in my head the day they had her torn away.
It changed me.

Now at the end of everyday I lie awake at night and wait
To feel the wires of my brain get cut and quietly rearranged, and
Hear my beaten heart exclaim, 'Still, I refuse to let her go.''

So we escape to our mistakes for they wait patiently for us.
Oh, how they always wait for me.

If my fear has kept me here only my fear can set me free.

And I'm sorry, dear, but don't you dare say another word.
How could I risk holding your heart in me while still in love with her?

You were wrong.'

6

i

 refuse

            to

                keep 

                        waking 

                                     up

                                         when

                                                   everyday

                                                                    gets 

                                                                            harder 

                                                                                         without

                                                                                                       you

there is 4 reasons i still wake up every single fucking day.

love 

is

murder

when one of the only things that could make me happy is a ghost in my head what the fuck do i do.

girl you make my heart beat 

but your the pistol in my mouth

i love you... still

                                                                              

you cunts like cranes?

had a fucking amazing sunday n monday with the runaways, 2 pints, chilli bread, toilet,eat

cuddles, sleeps n spoons with chicken burger, missing busses, tegan n sara old cd, docking, the red shore, essen sessions, sluts, chicks, some fat sluts/chicks, cranes, leafy paths, grass patches with used needles n broken glass, god of war, vera, songs,cunts, chats,cunts,a lot of brews,... smashing two cases of brews, driving home with dan, house show, frying chips, frying, being fried, father n son in the music shop, cool clothes, getting cross, rousing on cunts, hairy ears,buritos, nowra pics,trying to piss in my mouth , dan licking my nuts in nowra n a photo show this incident, not kissing boys :(), dan spiting in my mouth/cock hahahha, dan,jt,ad,cb,bj,ijh, not getting throat tattoos, pissing in girls cunts, opppsss,

not today,i love yous, sad goodbyes, 

i miss you fucks so much. i love you boys

i dont wana talk about anything else,

how do u cunts feel about cranes?

-0

im not getting anywhere, everyday is the same, everyday you dont leave my head... but you leave me in so many ways

i fucking hate this

but

2moro im going to see my brothers

its been way to fucking long... i love you guys more than life

i need to be around you everyday

sweet chats

sweet stars

-

fuck

if i had the bones on monday id get runaways tattood on my throat

RUNAWAYS TO THE FUCKING THROAT

- 

in the near future i wana start disconecting my self with mother-culture.

or just this mindset.

id also like to learn alot more on the wrongs of the peta organisation, im getting alot of mixed vibes of these cunts. in 2007 the org netted over 37 million dollars, wer the fuck did that go?

also i am no longer claiming veganism, although i will still refrain from consuming animal products wer possilble and logical as i do live in a vegetarian household.

i am nothing but me, just eli, no vs no xs 

-

i dont know what to do about you eitha, without talking to you im stilll falling in love with you over and over and over again every second your in my head, honestly... its killing me. i love you girly.

peace

i love you

-_-_

theerrreee is something about black nail polish on girls that makes me fucking crazy n i duno what it is buttttt fuuucckkkk my liffffeeeeeee.

i dont wana go 2 sleep 2night

A, A#

today was kinda cool, woke up late fucked around for a bit, went to work n fucked around for alot n then went n sussed brewd drinks in the park with my d.e.c kids n drew some cool runaways stuff in sauce... cool eh? this cunt has some real talent!!!!

i realllllyy wana rack to finish my setup.mangos. 

me n mum are guna rip up all the carpet n jjust have floor boards n shit... cool eh?

i feel like something is building up inside me. i dont think its a good thing. im getting less n less torarent with shit everyday, including myself. well seee how that turns out.

tonight im guna start writing some mellow songs on my dads gtar.

im guna start a mellow band... cool eh?

a mix between tegan & sara, coldplay, suicide silence, cat steves and sun tzu

i have to stop the whole net thing, fuck the net.

so ill get of at 9? cool? 

im still thinking of you more than ever...

and its murder

i still love you

and its killing me

and this is the only way i can tell you....

fuck my life

COOL EH?

ed

i just had the most amazing chat with a great friend that i havnt spoken to in almost a year.

edward from goodlife recordings. fuck hes a amazing dude, i miss his sweet cd deals n chats. 

suss goodlife recordings at goodliferecordings.com/webstore.

SNNNNAAAAAAAAAAKKKKKKKKEEEEEEEE!!!!!!

tonight i dont wana be me

tonight im guna ruin my self that fucking much that i pass-out n forget everything that has happend in about the last month. "im guna drink untill i forget the world gave up"

im guna drink untill i give up

                                                               RUNAWAYS     

i wish i could be with my brothers tonight, i wana get murderd with you cunts sooo horribly bad, like that ruined that we cant even fucking move and we all stare at the celing togetha.

                                                   GIRL IM IN LOVE WITH

i duno if she still reads these....

but if you do im guna drop some stuff in your mail box, cuz i know u probs still dont wana see me. 

yeah.... peace

song. 18 months

i watched the sky bring fire and burn all my hope

i watched when it was to late, wishing it was me

for all the times you asked, i never tryed

now id die to make amends

i cant look ahead when theres to many things to look back on

im falling apart at the seems you stiched up so many fucking times without question

will i give my self the chance to be half the man you were

"how can i try to explain, when i do he turns away"

where the fuck was i for 18 months while you held on to every last bit of hope for me

i brought fire thru your skys and burnt every last bit of hope you had for me

and i sat by your side when it was to late, staring at the celing, praying to someone who isnt, wishing it was me. feeling you go cold was the day i died. i wish it was me for those 18 months. still staring at the celing wishing you walk thru the door. i wish i went cold. i wish with every once of my being it was me.

i miss you dad

...

"Give me reasons to stop instead of a million reasons to keep it up"

"It's almost over now. I'll drink this bottle dry because for tonight i just don't want to try. For tonight if only for tonight i don't want to be me. I wish i could explain my problems but I'll keep them to myself"

amazing.....

cyborgs...

we are actully cyborg ninjas from the planet nilfliskianpotstrainer...

wel eat your brains................

and we just dont give a fuck!!!!

finish em all!!!

american me make me wana smash my face in witha claw hammer

you guys like backwards power chords?

iv never listend to a band more than american me in my life. blade posted a bulletin about his n phills setups. 6505s n dual recto's n krank rev1s,ghs 11-70's 

if you like violent dancing... suss these cunts

FUUCKKK

AM!!!!!!!!!!!

Every time I'm running away from myself no time to look back
Caught up in a mess, there's no way out
When it rains it fucking pours
Who am I to judge if the judged was me
I meant nothing more to this life these lies are fucking killing me

Liar, you're a liar, you're a motherfucking liar
You can lie to them but you cant fucking lie to yourself.

fuck i love this band sooo fucking much

what u say?

one of the reasons im still here. i love you rhan!!!

fuck shes beautiful. we are pretty cute

she wrote a letter to dad and iv never read anything more confronting in my life.its on our fridge but...

i cant even look at it.

but today is a good day.

im sussing our demo that got got masterd and im soo fucking impressed. beatdown as fuck. l.cs vocals are that fucking amazing, not like anyone elses. rad.

WHATSLEFT! IN YOUR FUCKING FACE CUNTS, suss the myspace

also she rang me last night. it was that good just to hear her voice. 

having saaaweeeettt convos with ijh_2000 has made shit alot calmer. i love you kid... i know your reading this haha

eternal lord are that fucking tough

AND YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT JUST BEFORE YOUR HEAD CAVED IN, YOUR EYES LOOKED AMAZING....

peace

___________....

i wana stop hating...but i wont

i wana stop ringing you when im drunk...i wont

i wana stop not wanting to wake up...but i wont

i wana stop drinking....but i wont

i would kill for her to feel the same...but she wont

i wana stop being alone everynight....but i wont

i wana be happy...i wont

i wana know what gos thru her head when she sees me...i wont... the only word i get is "fuck"

i wana be debt free...but the bank wants there 30k back

i want her to come thru my window into my room full of lit candles n wake me up... she wont

i want her ontop of me...

i wana be ontop of her...

i wana wisper in her ear...

i wana fuck her that bad...but i cant 

i wana wake up every morning with her taste still in my mouth

i wana wake up with her smiling at me...

i wana let go....i cant...even if i could i wouldnt

i want out

i want a glock 18

i know your reading this n my window is still open. 

i want you to know how much you mean to me...you wont

i want you to know that i love you.................................................................................................

hey yo check this out... i can take pictures...SICKCUNT

cool eh

why the fuck am i awake, i gota work 2day. fmlfmlfml

/,.';L,;'[/,'.;,;.O,.,.,/,;<>:":V.,';/.;m';E]

runawayslovecoronas

runawayslove...

no signal

dead blue fucking skys...... shit those cunts can bust somes notes.

it was alll a loooooongggggggggggg goodbye.

i really duno why every night i turn my amp on from the time i get home till the time i try n go to sleep. it just happens, maybe im fucking the tubes, they still glow tho, thats a plus huh. cunt.

                                                                      .....

got a cool beanie today for 2 bones. other than that everything was shit, no wait i chated to some of the most amazing cuntz on this earth n got a fucking cute pic of jt kissing me.younglove.

i did also have a corona in the park. styln cunt.

cunts are hookn up swine n shit. fuck i hate pigs. id love to take some of them with me when i bail.

bailing.... well see what the weather brings.

oi im that fucking numb, this isnt me. where is my mess? how come im not looking at the wires coming out of my celing wondering if i could have them in my hand n reach the switch like every other night. i think i could tho... sussn

the draft was auto saved at 12.22am but its 12.20am?thats sick.

 i wana go to canberra n see my family, my brothers...

no 

i need to go. 

im lost without you

fuck i cant let this kill me

(and i love you)....(rreeeaaallllyyy) egap

msn is a gang

blogs are deffs a fucking gang

"i am not angry, i am anger"

im your man

if this is the light, then leave me in the dark.

iv never felt this fucking cold before,fuck. this is eitha guna fix me or destroy me.

every night feels like the one before it and i wana walk away from this.

without you i dont wana be here but having u in my head gives me hope n being next to you everything is perfect. i duno if she really knows how much i need her or want her. the things i would give up at any moment for her i dont even know.

my only highs at the moment are her n talking to the kids i love more than family

everything is else is the same everyday. wake up alone go to work, come home, do nothing, go to bed alone. i think thats the worst bit... that i lie in the same bed, the same place, wishing i had her.

fuck this is starting to sound like a sherri blog.FUCK I LOVE SHERRI.

i cant find anymore words to make you realise. i love you.

iv been sussing some amazing notes this week.

blink-182-----blink-182

tegan n sara -----the con

cat stevens------the hurt, the search

abandon--------demo

eternal lord-----blessed be this nightmare

vera------------dem0 ( mostly just silence... everytime i hear that song, n those words... i wana put a gun in my mouth)

have heart-------songs to scream at the fucking sun  ( or my celing )

i honestly hate god... i dont even think hes really there. but if he is hes a cunt.

my prayers still fall upon deaf ears. 

runaways, dec, i love you cunts more than anything

yeah fuck it. im a mess... still

fuck this for a life

another night doing the same fucking thing, another night alone. ill lie on the same side in my bed, thinking the same thoughts of the same girl, of the same problems that wont go away.


im so fucking sick of this...
another goodbye thats not getting closer to anything.

adrian was right........................... fuuckkk it doesnt get any easier for us.


no matter what i say to her im not getting anywere
no matter what i think say or do i cant shake this feeling


i want this to change so fuuuuuccking bad.
this can fix me girl... thats what i wanted to tell you... you can fix me...but it there has to be more than this... but your outa my reach
n somehow i know thats not guna change

if only there was something i could give to make this happen.

cuz i would give anything for u.
____________________________________________

some memories continue breaking this cold heart


i just wana be happy
fuck it cant be this hard all the time

we needed the stars the other night boys but it just didnt happen
i kinda feel like that was my bad
dan shoulda kickd me in the head to wake me up

---------------------------------------------------------------------

i know know that i was really never good enough n now that im worse i cant deal with it.
i know i wasnt how u wanted me n i really shoulda taken some notice
but im just a fucking runaway
i cant help but think that if mayb i stoped putting myself first we would of had more time togetha
i wish i was what you wanted but its always to late.



like i said
it shoulda been me
im sorry it wasnt

___________________________________________________

im to afraid to tell the truth girl and im sorry.
i dont want this to be the me you know.
______________________________________________


pistol please i am done

,

RUNAWAYS FOR LIFE

you cant even comprehend how much these cunts mean to me

treading water and waiting for sharks

i dont even fucking know wer to start. fuck fuck fuck fuck. i want/need this more this/her more than most things iv ever wanted/needed.beatdownnnnnnnssssssssss... fuck. right so i miss my runaways n friers more than life, g burn ddnt really work out for us,fuck.

adrian, dan, runaways;'[\]/,./,';-=@#^= miss those cunts

who knew
i duno if anything i can do will change how this will go down. she is that fucking amazing, like fuck i duno even know how to put it. iv rarely felt this good about someone, and for me to be like this after only a few days is crazy, anyways back to beatdowns... dum dum dududum dum dum. fuuckjcjlhds


keen as fuck for sunday, keen as fuck for vera, keen as fuck for the layedback, keen as fuck for false hope, keen as fuck bury your dead and miley cirus.
I
AM
JUST
ANOTHER
FUCKING
RUNAWAY

then i get a sms... fuucccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkCkkkkkkkkkUkkkkkkkkkNkkkkkkkkkTkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

i dont even wana try

31,485 coin

hows my driving?
hows my life!

RUNAWAYS FOR LIFE
DEC CREW REPRESENT
you cunts are the only ppl (witha small exception of a a few great peps) that i give a fuck about n thats the way its guna stay

p.s FUCK THE POLICE



with love and hate

sinnkkkkkkiiinnnnnnnnnnngggggggg..... andddd SUNK

my life is being lived in 2week loan re-payments with shit being consantly shoveld on me nearly everyday.... give a cunt a break. i just opend a 700 coin phone bill, every fucking door that opens get slamed in my face.ahhhhhhhhhhh i fucking miss you dad

FUCK TELSTRA

i had silence on repeat most of the day, doing laps on my bike, trying to forget everything. i cant even explain how i feel when i have the emotions that come from that song even if i could therd only be one person id wana talk 2 about it...

i had the most fucking amazing chats last night with a.d, i love that cunt. it really helped, just dribbling shit for 3 n a half hours.

i also got done by a fucking cunt of a pig for riding without a helmet

FUCK THE POLICE

i really gota runaway.

fuck my life

*state craft ...to celebrate the forlorn seasons.
the most amazing band iv ever herd, this band has changed my life.
suss some 178/168 hardcore

RUNAWAYS REP!!!

sparks

had a fuckdst day, went to bega to pick up dads ashes





then had a shitty salad at some really nice restraunt in merimbula, the plus was there was heapsa hot ladies working there. i found tegan & sara at a cd shop so mum hooked me the bones to buy it, fuck shes amazing, deff the strongest person i know by far.





blaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk





i got a amazing msg from D2K when i got into 2 bega, the cunt knows how to put a smile on my face!!!

on the way home i was sussn fences in padocks n how one side in dry as fuck n the other is green, i duno it felt like it had some signifigance then,


yeahh thats about it

dockedrunaways

last night was that fucking amazing and miley cirus is that fucking hot and i got that fucking drunk last night n rung that many cuntz n wasted that much credit/plan/moneythatidonthave,

im fucking fried, but these kids give me a grip and fix my cunt when it breaks...


RUNAWAYS
you guys are my family, the hangs/shit talking/pissing our selfs/drinking piss/docking/fucked shit make me forget about everything that sucks
if you guys read this.... i fucking love you and apreciate you and everything we have so ffuuuuuuucckkkkking much, but i feel like even those words arnt enough. i wish we wernt so far away and *blank*........uhh
RUNAWAY
we just dont see each other enough...

but i know we will never let this shit die, without saying it/hearing it i know we all feel the same
and this is guna help us out ya know, i wana help you out man, well more than just help you out i want it/you (all )to be ok/happy. we just gota run and keep running, iv got so much hope for us, and im not really about hope.i love you

fuck raised fist hit rad notes
fuck
fuck
fuck
i think i gota get of the net its.... draining
runawaysfamily
thesearemyfriendsihavetherebackstheyaretheclosetthingtobloodthatihave
xx
x
3rdx

AHHH FUCK WE DOCKED... stoking,

hows my life?







these eyes tell the tail of a desprate man
i guess thats it toooooo afraid to telll the truth


sorunforyourlifeliveordie

i honestly love you boys

...

He has made the world seem so much brighter

but im still lost, i dont think its hit me yet.

the one thing that is clear at this point is ill live every breath for my family, my friends and the music that brightens up days...

with love