song. 18 months

i watched the sky bring fire and burn all my hope

i watched when it was to late, wishing it was me

for all the times you asked, i never tryed

now id die to make amends

i cant look ahead when theres to many things to look back on

im falling apart at the seems you stiched up so many fucking times without question

will i give my self the chance to be half the man you were

"how can i try to explain, when i do he turns away"

where the fuck was i for 18 months while you held on to every last bit of hope for me

i brought fire thru your skys and burnt every last bit of hope you had for me

and i sat by your side when it was to late, staring at the celing, praying to someone who isnt, wishing it was me. feeling you go cold was the day i died. i wish it was me for those 18 months. still staring at the celing wishing you walk thru the door. i wish i went cold. i wish with every once of my being it was me.

i miss you dad